James Hart, full of heart. Your poetic and beautiful thriving soul will live on forever in my memory, in the memories of those you’ve touched. At your core you were an adventurous traveler with a thirst for life that not everyone has, a thirst for beauty and knowledge, a thirst for new places and people, for experiences we should all wish to have. I am just so thankful you were living life to the fullest extent before you left us and I know it is exactly what you would have wanted to be doing. Some people go through their whole lives alive but not really living, but you James, you lived a short life that was so FULL of life and love. So full of you.
I remember writing this note and leaving it on your car outside of school before we left for winter break. You told me that you still had it, you still carried it, and I hope you still had it with you at the end. I will be seeing you, somewhere, someplace beautiful.
I woke up this past Sunday in a particularly sad mood. I couldn’t figure out why, I was just sad. I felt this internal loneliness and darkness and now that I know you died on that day, my sadness makes sense. It makes sense because you were an absolute light in this world, the loss of you would seem to make this place just a little bit darker. However I know that you leaving this planet does the exact opposite. You leave us with the memory of you and with a light inside of us that you placed in any person you met. Whether you were someone small in their life, or someone big; whether you just met them or whether you fell in love with them. You gave light to the fire within us all.
These are links to James’ different blogs - both amazing and inspiring. If you have a second to look through, you will leave with a smile. When I first met James, I had this sense that we were the same person inside two different people. I get the sense now that I was not the only person who felt this way about him - he was beautiful and could relate to things inside of different people.
James always sent songs and quotes and beautiful things. Always things that made your heart happy. This is a recent message I received from him, and I only hope I will meet him in a dream again sometime soon. <3
"you were in my dream last night. it was wild. all i remember is being in the hull of a ship. there were a lot of people who i didn’t know. then you came up to me. we were talking. then the ship hit rough water and it was rocking back and forth pretty bad and we were holding each other so we wouldnt fall. then it stopped and we went up to the top deck. and we talked for a second. then i was about to walk away and i woke up. it was weird and random and strange. but it was awesome because even though i don’t remember much, i remember hearing your voice and seeing your face. but i woke up and i thought it was nice to hear your voice. and how absolutely fucking weird that is because i havent seen you in so long but i could still remember your voice."
I can still remember yours James, thank you for touching my life.